I am getting so much crap..

It’s my decision of whether I want to attend university or not, but why am I getting so much crap?

Yes I want to go back, but I also think I’m not ready to go back just yet.  I have friends, family, even strangers telling me, “You should go back and get a degree” easy for you to say. You don’t have to pay the tuition, books fees and all those labs fees, oh and don’t forget the dorm (if I stay on campus), food, and gas. [I feel like I’m forgetting something]


It’s my life anyway, I’ll live it the way I see best. But no, my Papa keeps asking me, ‘when are you going back?’ ‘you should go back or get a full-time job’. Thanks for the encouragement but you’re not helping, not at all. Even if I do go back….what would I do? I don’t exactly have a goal or dream to achieve. Right now I’m trying to decide what to do with my life. Yes, I am working but I don’t want to stay there forever, not exactly enjoying what I’m doing anyway.

I know that I gotta re-take about 6 or 7 different courses, but what should I do after that???? My senior year in HS I thought about being a teacher, teaching English in a foreign country; that wasnt my dream when I was younger though. After 4th Grade I just wanted to be a teacher, that has been my dream ever since, until I went to Southern Adventist University. My first year, I pretty much decided teaching wasn’t for me, so (like an idiot) my 2nd Year I took alot of random classes and failed some in the process. So………… Yeah IDIOTIC for sure!!!!

Well now what am I going to do? I’m pretty much on academic probation, so if I go back I can only take a certain amount of credit hours and pray that I don’t fail them.

I’m not even sure college is for me.

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